I guess it is really the situations in our lives that make us who we are today. For better or for worse, people change. That is inevitable. Our views began to change. Everything around us change. I believe I have change as well.

Most probably the situations in my life that make me change. Consciously or unconsciously I change from since I was in primary school and sometimes it makes me miss the old me. The little girl I used to be. I always complain about change.

I remember how my life was back then and how my life is now. Making comparisons between the past and the present. Somehow, the past was much more peaceful. Much happier if you ask me. Was on facebook just now and my cousin uploaded past photos when we were much younger as we played together at the beach. I feel nostalgic looking at all the photos. It is like the whole world was my playground and I remember the picnics at the beach. Simply and common activities but they bring back such fond memories of my past. Somehow, it is also refreshing to know that in the past I looked so much different. I mean, it would be weird if I looked the same, past and present.

My attitude towards life has change, things I used to thought were fun is fun no longer. Sometimes, I wish things would not change. Hoping that it will forever stay the same. But that was not to be. Yet, there are somethings that have not change like I still live in the same house as I did when I was younger and I dont want to move as this place holds childhood memories that I treasure.

If you ask me, which part of my house is the place where holds the most memories for me it would be the garden.
Why?
Cause I remember I used to play in the garden the most. Spreading out a mat, pretending to have a picnic or just pretending that I am a garden fairy, plucking the flowers in the garden and trying unsuccessfully to put them on my hair. Or just lying down on the mat and looking up at the vast sky. Those are memories that I would not trade for anything in the world! Gold and riches can never measure up as money can never buy happiness and I choose my happiness over money.

Now, my childhood garden look so forlorn. The flowers dont grow, the trees die just a sapling, the stump of an old tree is left, fence block the happy times where I just talk with my old neighbour about her dogs and she would happily chat with me. Where did all of them go?

Why did all these have to change? Sometimes I wish there was a never never land but that is in dreams. Goodbye.