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♥ Friday, October 31, 2008

Gah! Felt very very emotional yesterday. Lots of things making me doubt big time. It's like life went past me in a blur and I'm trying to capture them all back. Where you know you have one of those big nets to catch butterflies with? Sadly, I do not have a gigantic net.

Something happened, and it made me review my image of my father. Is he the person I thought I know or maybe I just came up with an ideal image of a father and made him fit the picture. (Though I dont think his waistline can fit the picture)<----attempt at a lame joke.
I just doubted. I cant seem to believe him anymore. And as my brother has so clearly notice. I try to keep my distance. I just feel so damned insecure. I hate being so insecure. But as a friend said. He is my father. I cant change that fact. Whether I like it or not, he is my father and will always be. (sounds cheesy) It's inevitable lah, we are still humans after all and we try to hide from the truth and I try to hide from it and ignore it. Pretending I cant see it cause I'm a coward. But I have to faced it someday or later. I remember a poster I gave to my dad for his birthday. It says the truth will set you free. I think, I actually really bought that for me. Haha.
I dont hate my father. I think he is the best father in the world. He may not be perfect or fit my ideal image of a father but my dad is still the best! The best in the whole wide world in fact! He has won the best dad in the whole wide world consecutively every single year to me and to tell you the truth, I will not trade my father with anyone else. I may gushed at a friend's father but secretly, I think my dad is better! (I leak my secret out! Shoot!)
I maybe scared of my dad and sometimes I am very afraid of him. He knows that and he tells me countless of times that I dont have to be afraid of him. But, hee, I'm still afraid! :)

Sorry to everyone I made worried yesterday.　ほとに　ごめなさい！(really sorry!) Not your fault. It is entirely my fault for being so stupid. Haha! :) Sorry I get very depressed sometimes. But I will try my best to stay cheerful!

Yesterday, my dad brought my siblings and me out to some high end place where all the rich people hang out. So I had to really dress up last night or I would be wearing my usual 3 quarters and shirt. I dont mind though. It feels good looking pretty! Hey! There should be an argumentative question which is, "Should teenagers be encouraged to dressed nicely?" I will immediately agree and all the skills I pick up from the English enrichment course will go flying out the door. Okay, maybe not all, but I wont bother to come up with a rebuttal for every single point I make. Takes too much time. I agree it is effective but time consuming.

Anyway, back to this high end place...I did not even know such a place even existed in Singapore!!! I have lived here all my life but I did not know!!! It was somewhere in Holland near Queenstown. Heard Of Dempsey Hill? Please dont let me be the only clueless person left in the whole of Singapore. Well, anyway, the place was so westernised! The place is soo big! It's like a gigantic shopping centre out in the open and I was totally blown away! My dad kept circulating around the whole place and I though he was lost.

There were alot of restaurants. There was this restaurant selling cheese fondue! I have heard of chocolate fondue but not cheese! Do I sound like a gundu? hahas! I'm amazed! Flabbergasted! Surprised!

The restaurants are super ex!!! So we poor but trying to look rice people settled for Ben and Jerry's for supper. They had a live band playing and it was the very thing that drawed us to Ben and Jerry's in the first place. It was just amazing! Since it was Halloween, the waiters and waitresses were dressed up as witches and ghouls and goblins! Even the live band was a band of ghouls, goblins and a witch who is the singer. I saw an angel as well who was the cashier and waitresses dressed as dolls and pirates. But I think the ghouls are the scariest. Especially when one of the ghost had something oozing out and it really was oozing out!!! Scary!!! It was a whole new experience for me. Ben and Jerry's was made into something like a pub. It was like I step into a different world! But not the fairy world. More like a nightmare you have as a kid. But it was a good experience! I did not eat ice cream. I go for Cheesecake! The berries were very sour!!!

And there was a grocery shop too! It is nothing like the supermarket like NTUC! You can dine in the grocery store!!! And they sell cookies that looks to good too eat!!! And the sweets are just so cute! Man! I must have stepped into another world!! Or maybe a parallel universe! (hopeful) Hahas! Yesterday's outing was a whole new experience for me. So posh! Gosh! I'm gushing! :)

I Lay every burden down, at the foot of the cross

A moment to remember!

I trade these ashes in for beauty and wear forgiveness as my crown. And I stand here before you in wide open wonder amazed at the glory of you.

U dont noe me cos I'm not really telling

Hihi! I’m Sarah! こにちわ！ I can crack a thousand chopsticks! :) What do ya really want to know bout me? Aiya! Just know that I am the one and only me Can le! :P Oh yes! One more thing! I WANNA BE A LION!

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