I was reading through my old diaries just now and I am surprise at how much I have grown from the me of the past and the me of the now. In my past diaries, I made so many spelling mistakes that it was horrendous! The insecurities I feel when I was in primary school, the sadness and anger have not really left me. My handwriting was atrocious as well! So big and ugly!

My past crushes and blushes. It's funny now as I read as how I gushed over a guy. And my brother was right. It was just infatuation. At that time, I didn't see it that way. I saw it as the love of my life or something like that. I must have been too naive. And the endless teasing I received from my brother when he learned I used to have a crush on this guy.
"Kiefer the kisser kiss Sarah seah!" And I would scream at my brother to stop saying that! Haha! I only liked him in primary four which is how many years ago? 5 years ago! I mean, he is my classmate since primary 1 to primary four so how can I not like him especially when I have seen him so vulnerable before. He fell when roller blading down the hill and cried. It's funny! I wanted to laugh but I quickly cycled home to get help. I'm really not a sadist, but at primary four, you will really want to laugh at something like that but come to think of it. I am still laughing now as I recall that incident. I already told him it was dangerous to roller blade down the hill but he still insisted that it was fun so serve him right I guess! Now, I remember him as the ants eating guy, spitting Silvia guy and the guy who helped me repair my toy dog. LOL!

I remember as how I would always turn to my diary and start penning down or my happiness, my sadness, my insecurities on how I thought people hated me for something I did and I dont even know where I have gone wrong. My hurts when my friends left me out. Aiya, just insecurities lah! But there are also lots of happy moments too!

Like when I acted as baby rockstar from goldilocks and the 3 bears but just changing it to bouncylocks and the rockstar family in a skit or when I acted as the evil witch in Repunzel. I was happy when my friends praised me that my evil laughter was really convincing. I really sounded like a real witch! All these are moment when I can never forget! P6 graduation night, I remember the hunted house which was not so scary. Somebody made us touch goey stuff and they hung floating things around. My friend Audrey I guess was annoyed that thing keeps getting into her face that she pulled on that dangling thing and it broke! Lol! So funny lah! I think the person who was managing the hunted house was annoyed that we were not only scared but Audrey broke one of his "toys"! LOL! I remember Audrey saying, "See if you can scare us again! hmph!" HAHA!

And the barbecue at my form teacher's condo! She treated us to barbecue cause we all past our PSLE and when into the express stream! As usual, I did not eat any fried chicken. Too messy and oily for me. I ate alot of sausage! It was really fun lah! And the joy that my friends were going to be in the same secondary school with me made me cant wait for the new year! A whole new chapter of my teenage life awaited me in secondary school!

But now, I really miss those days. The stupid things I did and did not even realise they are stupid until I take a step back and realised just how immature I was. Though I cant claim that I am very mature now, just slightly matured. I mean, I'm sure there is always still a kid inside of us that makes us do silly things once in a while like wearing rabbit ears! Lol!