I just read and e-mail from my brother.

I don't know but its the first time I received an e-mail from him! I'm totally surprise!

It was an e-mail calling for my understanding. I feel really touch. I don't know but I just am.

I totally understand why he does not allow me to use his study table. I'm really fine with it. I mean its his final year and I really want him to do well in his exams. It hurts to see my brother sad.

Yes. I must admit that I am jealous that my brother gets the good stuff. While all I get are pass-me-downs. Its annoying but I learn to live with it. It does seem that my parents favour my brother more than me. But no matter how hard we try to deny, I'm sure there is some part of us that prefers one person to the other. A teacher cant say I dont show favouritism cause its like in us. But I guess we can try to hide it by trying to be fair to everyone else. So I dont really blame my parents for being unfair but there are times when I just get really annoyed and I wonder why is the world so damn unfair.

When I was younger, I wished that my brother was never born and I am the first born. But that feeling has change. I'm sooo glad now that my brother is the first born. He experience everything first hand. Like for example, being caned! So its not so bad. I also learn fro my brother mistakes so I would not make them myself. And it's just great to have an older brother as I realised that some of my friends wished that that they had elder brothers. My older brother protects me and he really cares for me alot I'm sure. That's why its great to have and older brother!

Yea, I may get angry and jealous, but I just get over it after all there are there are times when I dont receive hand-me-downs.

Yes, I must admit that I find it annoying that my brother would be using my laptop whenever I want to use it but it also serves a good purpose for me. It prevents me from wasting my time on the computer and spent productive time studying. So I learn to accept it sometimes. I may complain but I am secretly glad that he is using it, preventing me from wasting my time. Anyway, he needs it more than I do. he needs it for project work and what do I do on the computer? Blog, read manga, watch animé and chat on msn?

I really thank God that I have an older brother like him. He really cares and sometimes he serves as an inspiration to me. I love my older brother!