Ya noe, sometimes i feel as if i have eaten more than i can chew. I keep taking on task i dont even noe if i can do it or not. I just keep "eating" but cannot "chew" anymore. I dont noe why i'm always doing silly things like this. Agreeing to do the task not noeing if i can complete it or not. Why am i doing silly things like this? Why am i saying yes to things i cannot fulfill? Is it because in the heat of the moment or wat? I wish i have never taken on so many task. I'm so stupid! I wish i have think before i have acted. Or agreed to do any task. I guess i'm just not responsible enough. Why did i have to take so much in my stride? Can i cancel everything? All the task ahead of me is unbearable. And i get so discourage along the way. People pulling me down...as if i'm not trying hard enough already. I dont seem to be able to do a single task wholeheartedly. I've come to a point where i simply dont care anymore. Dont mind me. I'm just a ghost drifting past. I wish all these things would not block me from reaching my goals. I feel as if i just keep hitting a tree. (see arrow) And if u keep failing, u will just naturally wanna give up. I wish she would support me in all my decisions that i have made but, sadly, my wish is not to come true. Now i'm so scared to make a hasty decision. What if it turns out wrong or i've made a bad choice? Argh...my chest hurts...i wish i've kept my big mouth shut.