Ok, so i was really upset during netball on friday. I guess i am really weak and my passes are not strong enough. I keep getting confused about wat my coach wants and well, i keep getting other people involve. Like them being scolded by the coach because i was confused. I really wish i can stop this silly mistakes that i make and would be able to learn fast. Netball is the only thing that i am learning really slowly. I dont noe why. And i feel as if i have choosen the wrong CCA. Netball just isn't me. Well, I'm really glad that sometimes coach praise me for catching up or my timing was perfect but it is really very seldom. This not only upsets me but my seniors. Well, some of them, i get the feeling that they dont like me. They dont like anybody who sucks at netball and then when u did something that compliments them they get all chummy with u! I mean, how shallow can they get?! Ok, so i suck at netball but i am really trying to do my best here. I am really trying cos i dont get nervous for nothing. Then when she throws the ball to me i miss catch and then i'm on the black list. She is just so shallow! So far, two of my seniors are like that. It really brings my moral down. She is only nice to those who are good at netball and those who can compliment her. I just wish someone would just come along and encourage me. Saying that i can do it. I'm almost reaching the goal. Praise me when i only score one goal...etc. And if i fail, she will just say "Hey! Try harder! U can do it!" Not someone who pulls me down. I dont need that. Forget it, I noe i cant make everyone in the world like me so why do i keep trying anyway? Ok, so i like people to praise me, to like me. I guess i am this insecure. But i dont noe lah...i just noe that i cant make everyone like me no matter how shallow they are. i can only keep trying.