♥ Wednesday, November 15, 2006
Really...sometimes i dont noe wat to decide. Todae,i went for netball,and u can say that it was just a waste of time. I sat there and just watch everybody play lor. Ok lar...i did play one game...actually,todae 2 skools came and we have a match. But most of the time i was sitting on the bench watching as the the game go by and how i long to be pick...so,i'm glad it did happen. But i cant help feeling sorry for myself...it is hard. I keep telling myself that warriors dont give up that easily, they carry on till the end...Even though i did not play much, i feel tired, very tired...but i told myself to put on a happy face as if u do not mind at all...i asked my dad once why do ppl hide their ture feelings instead of being ture to themselves? Isn't it just deluding themselves? Instead of answering me, my dad just go round in circles with his answer, so i do not really noe. Its not fair isn't it? I really really wished i could turn back time...I'm a warrior...so wat am i fighting for and hu am i fighting wif? I want to have a talent, but i dont noe wat is it...so stupid rite? At the end of the day, i figure out that i'm just fighting wif myself, and i'm on a quest to find myself.
I Lay every burden down, at the foot of the cross