I had a fight with my sister todae i guess maybe it is my fault...maybe...it could be out of jealousy or wat...maybe it is not...

I guess wat made me angry was that she keep using a stick and keep hitting a plant in my house(dunno why)which kinda made me angry and i took a broomstick and smack her butt and she smack me back. Of coures i smack her back and she manages to smack me back and she went and hid behing my maid so i cant hit her...Grrr...then my mother called her to go do her work and she went and i wouldn't let her do outside so i use the broomstick and block her...so we were like pushing here and pushing there and it ended up serious. While we were pushing here and there, the broom came off and my sister had the stick while i had the broom.

My sister can be super fierce and i'm abit afraid of her...so i just threw the broom at her,she dodge and ran away and of course i chased after her...she once again hid behind my maid...i took a umbrella and tried to poke her in the ribs but fortunately for her , my maid stop us. Fined! The coward as she is. Act tough ony...i guess i'm no better than her...i was tempted to tear all her stuff into pieces or even better still, burned them. But i did not.

I feel so ugly after that...i dont dare to see my maid, it is embarrassing...i really felt sooo horrible, like a monster. I wished i never had fight with my sister. It is so childish!!! My childish behaviour. I feel so bad...got to try and pluck up my courage to say sorry...but then when everytime she started the fight i am always the one to say sorry to her...is that fair??? Must really find the courage to say sorry to her and to God. I dont dare talk to God either...i'm soo horrible, i dont dare to look in the mirror fearing that i see someone very ugly there...

Haix...

From Me.